Deep Breath.

It is neither here, nor there. It is not found in any THING. It is not in addition to, nor removal of. Contentment is a baseline of acceptance of place in life. Place being physically, the state, or mentally. To be is just that. To find it is a lot harder trying to explain than something a person can add or takeaway from their life. To feel the BEING, is a gift, one that is no better or worse than anything else, nor can be bragged as such. 

This vague cloud of abstract words, with their pompous sentence structure, is all indicative of a concept people miss on a daily basis. That which lies right ion front of us, yet me misdirect energies to try and capture it through misguided means. This, as evident by desires and dissatisfaction when those desires are not met. For contentment is to me, the most ideal state of mind, and what I fathom Heaven to be like. I feel like we get glimpses of the afterlife sometimes here on earth. Maybe an early morning writing session, where it is not about likes or views, just organic thoughts spilling out on screen, or paper if I am without Wifi. 

This elusive feeling can be found anywhere as a matter of fact. It can be even in the midst of pain and suffering. It can be found, or at least, held on to, even in the face of extreme pleasure. If something good happens to me, my mind reverts back to me, "deserving it," where I most certainly do not. Instead of this prideful battle of self and what else I deserve, I revert back to the one place I feel the best, content. I can take it or leave it, yet appreciate that much or little I get. A concept driven by this peace. A peace that also reminds me, "I am not in control anyways." 

Ah yes, a spiritual twist. However, the only way I could feel or describe that which I am feeling, have felt, and continue to promote in others. Contentment cannot be met with acts however, but an underlying knowledge of willingness and allowance. This, instead of ignorantly thinking we can obtain that control, we agree to let it go, for it was a facade as ours anyways. The peace rings true through chaos. This is not backing down, doing nothing, being lazy, for those actions have their own motives to fuel those desires. No, this one is a very active process, reminding the self that "It is OK." 

As a matter of fact, "OK" doesn't get enough credit. We throw it around like it holds significance for the abusers of its term, like a lyrical name in vain, though we never appreciate what "OK" provides. Being, "OK" can be the best a person can be doing at the time. "OK," is not great, or fantastic, or even good. It is merely "OK" and I am truly, "OK" with that. The other, "In addition too" phrases such as, "better," "awesome," "great," are all negativing the importance of "OK" and how this is neither an elevated stimulation or is it being less than. To me, to be, "OK" is right where I choose to be in this world. 

If this vague explanation of nothing, "in addition to," or "Lack thereof" didn't get you riled up, then I've got nothing left in the tank. There are plenty of other chaotic pieces written depicting discontent, that this one time, this moment, right now in the early morning of the day, I am content. 

For other discontent, more chaotic times in the past related to my Body Image disorder, and to maybe help you get closer to your own version of contentment, click HERE.